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Nov. 1st, 2005 @ 05:23 pm (no subject)
Halloween was really uneventful. Ethan went with Pam, Leah, and Jon to the Trunk-or-Treat in the parking lot of the local hospital. If you haven't been to a Trunk-or-Treat, it's just where local groups park in a parking lot and pass out candy. I guess there was a firetruck there, and Ethan was very pleased that he got to sit in a real firetruck. By the time I met up with them there, they were ready to leave. It's amazing how many people will turn out and stand in line for an hour or more just so their kids can get free candy. And yet, they won't take a few minutes to go vote, or give blood, or what-have-you. I am just thankful Ethan didn't want to wait in line for the whole thing. We did some other minor trick-or-treat, but the whole night seemed underplayed. We didn't even have that many trick-or-treaters at our house. I think there is something to the idea that they should move Halloween to the last Friday in October, and make it that way from now on.
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Oct. 31st, 2005 @ 04:59 pm (no subject)
Ethan's a fire fighter for Halloween this year. I just went a bought him a costume at KMART. I wanted to do something creative, but ultimately decided I put too much energy into a holiday that doesn't need that much attention. No, I am not making some big statement about whether, as a society, we should celebrate Halloween. It's just there are 4 big holidays in about 2 monthes time. My family celebrates them all. Plus, I have Ethan's birthday in 2 weeks, a baby shower to co-host on the same day, then it's Thanksgiving, and then in December there are at least 4 family birthdays, an anniversary, Christmas, and New Year's Eve. "I've got my country's 500th anniversary to plan, my wedding to arrange, my wife to murder, and Gildur to fram for it. I'm swamped." (i.e., I have better things to do with my time; yes, and torturing someone may be one of those things:). Yeah, I think that's how it goes. So, I will take him out Trick-or-Treating, and that's about it. Bah humbug.
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Oct. 24th, 2005 @ 05:18 pm (no subject)
Ethan got sick, around 3:00 am Saturday morning, and he just wasn't himself all day Saturday. He seemed better by Sunday, although he has some unpleasant lingering effects. For the most part, I think he is well on the road to recovery, thank goodness!

Since we stayed pretty close to home all weekend, my activities we mostly limited to whatever I could find to do around the house. Oh yes, there were the ever present "domestic duties," but I also read "The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time" by Mark Haddon which I enjoyed quite a bit. I also watched a tv-version of Starship Troopers which was silly and not in a good way, and Sherlock Holmes: The Case of the Silk Stalking which was silly in a good way and mostly entertaining in a I'm-glad-I-caught-it-but-I-probably-wouldn't-have-recorded-it way.
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Oct. 21st, 2005 @ 01:45 pm (no subject)
This morning my husband called me just to thank me again for the cds of classical music I bought him last Valentine's Day. I guess he's listening to them alot since they are running the NPR Jazz station's pledge drive right now. His call left a little nugget of happiness in my heart. It's nice when people let you know they appreciate the little things you do :).

It also makes me happy when my 3 year old son gives me a hug, kiss, and an "I love you, Mommy," completely of his own volition. This morning, around 7:00 a.m., I was trying to get back to sleep after a night of too little sleep. Ethan fell asleep last night around 6:30 pm. My sister is watching an infant this year, and since her house is limited on space and there is really only one place to nap (the master bedroom), the infant has taken precedence. Ethan has pretty much dropped his afternoon nap, and it isn't uncommon for him to fall asleep too early in the evening. Of course, he misses dinner and wakes up around midnight ready to eat and play. So, last night I stayed up, expecting Ethan to wake up, and eventually he did. I fed him, and climbed in bed with him, hoping he would fall back asleep. He was a complete bag of wiggles, and as the night slid by I got more tired, and cranky. Luckily, Brian came to my rescue around 1 am, and he laid down with Ethan. Even after I finally got to sleep, it seemed to be a pretty restless night and I seemed to wake up every so often, especially when Brian's alarm went off, and then again when the garbage truck rumbled through the neighborhood. I really wanted to go to sleep, and hopefully sleep in, but then I heard Ethan's door open. For a split second I dreaded seeing him, because I was so tired and I didn't think I had it in me, but then I heard him exclaim, "THE DOOR'S OPEN!!!" (meaning the door to our bedroom) like it most the most exciting moment of his life. He ran up to my bedside, and gave me a huge hug. Well, I wanted to get up then. His enthusiasm is so infectious, and how can I resist spending time with someone who seems so excited to see me, no matter how tired and cranky I am.

It's definately these little things, Brian's appreciation for cheap classical music cds and Ethan's excitement to see me first thing in the morning, that make it all worthwhile.

You know what else? I love my family, and I don't think I really deserve their love sometimes. They really make me look good :). I am just glad Brian and Ethan are willing to put up with me, even though I can be a real pain sometimes.
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Oct. 19th, 2005 @ 04:22 pm The vomit fairy
Apparently he/she/androgynous-it comes at night, taps you with their Magic Regurgitation Wand, you puke twice and 12 hours later it's over. So far my sister, my nephew, and two kids that my sister watches during the week have "enjoyed" a visit. Ethan and I (and maybe even Brian) may have been exposed. I just hate waiting around to see if one of us gets sick. Since I am just getting over bronchitis, I really don't want to get sick, but I would hate for Brian and Ethan to get sick. While I don't like for anyone I love to be sick, I have to admit that I dread cleaning up puke almost as much as I fear puking myself.
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Oct. 17th, 2005 @ 05:01 pm this, that, the other
Self-indulgent, introspective thought of the day (or, things that make more sense in my head):

I feel like I am four people: 1. the person I think I am, 2. the person others see, 3. the person I actually am.

None of these is the person I want to be. I guess that is the ultimate challenge: to become who I want to be, and to quit apologizing for the other three.

My sister Melissa is pregnant, so beautifully pregnant. Her baby is due on December 20th, they plan to name him Jackson Bauer Allen. When I look at her I feel a lot of things, pride and love mostly. I also hear the cacophonous ticking of my own biological clock. I suppose I must make myself content to live vicariously through her, though, even though I may go insane. Are there any documented cases of insanity caused by an overzealously ticking biological clock?

I've decided to complain less, and be less judgmental. Just trying to finally become the person I want to be.
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Oct. 5th, 2005 @ 04:27 pm Day two of unexpected at work lj access
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Better than Ezra--Before the Robots/The Fixx Greatest Hits
I should be working, but I am using the old "I-am-too-sick-and-every-time-I-move-I-hack-up-a-lung" excuse. Besides, I think I put away no less than 1,234.5 books today, so I feel entitled to a rest. My boss would probably feel differently, but she is all the way in eastern Idaho, so what is she going to do about it? Hahaha...

In an attempt to be cool, my boss bought a poster for the library that has Coolio on in that says, "Read". Um, when was the last time Coolio was, um, like, cool? And would you be more inclined to read if "Coolio on a poster" told you to? We also have a Selma Hyek poster that says "Read--Lea" which I had to cut in half and reassemble because it went into the laminator crooked and got all messed up.

I am leaving my husband unattended for three days. Brian, if you are reading this, please don't just lounge around in your underwear. I don't mind if you lounge, just put some pants on for pete's sake! And don't put your finger in that, you don't know where it's been. No more than two Weird Al cds in the cd player at a time, and don't play Bosconian all night--you'll run the batteries down, and then I won't be able to get my DigDug/PacMan practice in. That is all.
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Oct. 4th, 2005 @ 03:58 pm this is weird, soo...
Current Mood: dorkydorky
I don't know why, but for some reason the block they had on lj has been dissolved, most likely temporarily, and I am able to get on lj. Wow. It's been so long, I am not sure what to say. My life is wonderfully mundane. I go to work, come home, read, watch tv, spend time with my loved ones, watch my son grow up, and try not to worry to much about the future. You know, normal stuff. I try to chronicle important events in a regular, pen and paper journal. I know, how quaint. But life is good, God is good, and both are equally interesting and quite confusing.

May the hair on your toes grow long, or some such hobbit nonsense.
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Oct. 31st, 2004 @ 07:18 am (no subject)
I am up way too early for a Sunday morning--the end of daylight savings time must be messin' with me.

We spent yesterday with Jen and baby Ellie. Brian, Ethan and I even babysat Ellie last night. I have to say, my niece is so precious, and so easy to take care of! She was just perfect. For an almost 3 month old she is pretty easy going. She is starting to smile and jabber a little bit at you. I have to admitit is kind of bittersweet for me. I was so sleep deprived and terrified and depressed in Ethan's first few monthes, that I don't remember those moments when he first smiled at me... or maybe I do. Yeah, I do, I honestly just remembered! One afternoon, while I was still breast feeding him, he was laying there in my arms and I was looking down at him, and he looked up at me and just smiled. Phew... I hope I am not just making this up. It feels good to remember, because I was afraid I had missed all that.

I don't feel like talking about the Halloween, or the election.

Honestly, I don't know what to write. My life is pretty "business as usual" right now.
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Oct. 19th, 2004 @ 09:32 am (no subject)
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Delirious -- World Service
Yesterday I found out that I am going to make even less money this year, due to this that and the other thing. When my boss told me, I thought I was going to break down, right there in front of her, but I held it together. Eventually, I was okay, and I realized that if we really need the money, I could apply to sub on Fridays. With a teaching certificate, I can make pretty good money. So, I am not stressing about it. In the past I would be throwing a hissy fit but, hey, I'm a grown-up now. I've got options. I'm not worried.

So, the Big Brother internet filter is still doing its job, so no "fun" at work. And, yes, when I found out they had a filter up, I went straight to Google and did a image search for nude paintings, both female AND male. AND I took a GOOD, LONG LOOK! Take that, commies!

I am trying to be less slothful at home, and keeping up with the housework as best I can. Weekends have been busy: family pictures, Sesame Street Live, baby dedications, birthdays, you name it. Speaking of birthdays I have one to plan here pretty soon. It's hard to believe he will be 3! He wants to be a firetruck for Halloween. I need to figure out how I am going to do that, but I have a plan. Hopefully it will be cool and he won't be too tramatized. Speaking of trauma, one of our neighbors in the subdivision put up a Halloween display with a lifesized headless horseman on what looks like a dinosaur (I think it's suppose to be a horse skeleton, but it looks like a dinosaur to me) and Ethan covers his eyes when we pass it on our walks. Wow, can't believe the "holiday season" is upon us. Seems like Halloween is the start of it all, I don't know why.

I've been enjoy a few of the new fall shows. "Lost" is now a definate "don't miss" for me. And I like "Veronica Mars," even though I feel a little silly watching it since I am TOTALLY out of the demo group they seem to be shooting for. And, I have to admit that I've watched "Desperate Housewives" a couple times, but I doubt I will follow it regularly. Not that it offends me or anything like that. Maybe it's because they make life look so bleak, but then again I really am enjoying a show centered around a plane crash, so I don't know why it turns me off. Other than that, I am trying to give my all to "Enterprise." I just want it to survive, because I think Captain Archer is the best captain since Picard and I really love sci-fi. I crave it like chocolate and Jane Austen novels. Which reminds me, PBS is going to be airing a reality dating show where the participants will have to "court" one another according to 18th century rules. I'm all aquiver with anticipation.

I have also joined Brian's night game fantasy football league. Do not expect greatness. I am the least competitive person I know, and I know very little about picking winning teams. I've picked the Colts for the last few years just because I like the fact that Peyton Manning finished college before running off to the play professional football. I don't know why that's important to me, it just is. I don't like the fact that college centers around athletic programs. I can't help it. I'm an academic. Anyway, I think I just joined the fantasy league because I'd like to know a little bit about it and understand a little bit why Brian likes it so much, and fantasy baseball just seemed too time consuming.

I admit I am not a sports fan, really, but I really would like to see the Red Sox make it to the world series for my Grandma's sake. She has ties to the team and to the East Coast that go back to the early 1900s, and I would love to see the smile on her face if they beat the Yankees and made it. Of course, I know she would love to see them win the World Series, but I think she would get the most enjoyment out of beating the Yankees. Go Red Sox!
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